Ask Poopreport: I Have A Fear Of Pooping Myself
The past couple of months I've been having a fear of pooping myself in public. I don't know when it first happened, but it seemed like it appeared out of nowhere. and it's extremely terrifying. I've start sweating profusely, twitching a lot, and then I have to keep shifting my body weight or else I think the poop will come out.
The catch? Half the time I don't actually have to go. I feel like it's all mental. I'm 18 and I was diagnosed with a General Anxiety Disorder years back like when I was probably ten. I stopped going to a therapist years ago and I've seemed to contradict my diagnosis in the past years. I became the class president, and I frequently had to speak in public. It's never been a problem before. I've always been fine. I really don't know what triggered it because I've never actually crapped myself in public.
Now with school starting, I'm constantly thinking about this feeling during class. Without exaggeration, I must say that I can't focus at all, and every period I have to ask to go to the bathroom. It's embarrassing as all hell. Sometimes I think I even let some out, so I'm afraid to stand up. Luckily, every time I get to bathroom, nothing has come out.
There was one time I was in public with a group of people. I had a terrible sensation that I had actually crapped myself. I felt it go down my legs. In my head, I thought everyone smelt something and I convinced myself that everyone was walking away from me. After about a half hour I realized that they were just trying to get to some shade and I hadn't actually crapped myself at all.
I need help real soon because I have my SATS and ACTS coming up, and I already know I'm going to go insane during them. Seeing a therapist is kinda out of the equation, and there's no way in hell I'm telling my parents. If anyone has any advice that would be great. I just started taking digestive medication. I'll see if that works.